Your attitude always gives you a reason to not mess with your present way of thinking, feeling, and acting that you have always felt comfortable with. So why change anything? Then there is another side of you, which by the way truly exist, that desires something different. These desires are a good thing that you possess. I bet you some of your desires have repeated themselves many times over the years. This happens because that other side of you wants them and telling you to pursue them. But you do not. If you decide that you are in the over 90% category, then you have at least opened the door to creating the change you desire. This is a great decision on your part.